Friday, March 30, 2012

Thinking.....

Recently I have thinking a lot about China, it's children and the welfare of the children left behind waiting for forever families. My heart was shattered they day I walked through Miss Diva's orphanage and saw the need. We walked into a room where there were babies on the floor, I walked over to one and  just looked down at him. I saw the hunger for touch and attention and the desparate look in his eye. I will never forget that child as long as I live.

I went to the back of the room and looked out the window and saw  new shiny red, blue and yellow play equipment and thought to myself, "it looks brand new." I wonder if my little girl ever played on that. There was no smudge marks or dirt,  the swings looked like the wind was the only thing that has ever made them move. I wonder....

Just today we were playing outside and Miss Diva never likes to come inside..I wonder if she ever got to play outside in China? I wonder if she ever got to sit on a bike? I wonder if she ever had the wind blow in her face? I wonder if she ever had sand run through her fingers....I wonder alot....does she have siblings, what was her favorite thing to do there? I can't stop wondering...I wonder about her foster parents.... I need to find them...and I will..if it takes me years I will find them.


she is doing so wonderful....she loves to play dress-up. she gets to  play outside and ride bike and slide down slides. Here is evidences

Friday, March 23, 2012

Show boat!!!

Her new thing is Hello Kitty. She loves Hello Kitty. I think I just found the theme for her birthday party. I am excited to do this birthday party with family and friends this year.
What a show boat eh? like the pose....

warm weather + sand, water and riding bike =


dirty yan yan...she had so much fun. I literally had to scrub to get the dirt of her.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Miss diva's new outside toy

we decided that since Zellers was going out of business that we should use our points we have collected. We decided that we would get miss diva something new for outside. We went looking and saw this. It was easy to put together and her daycare friends and play with her. She loves this toy.

golfer


I think someone is going to be a golfer.. She loves to swing those clubs and already has the standz in tack. she hit the ball across the street the other day and hit the truck parked on the street, OOOOps sorry!

A Rough Day!

 On tuesday morning Miss Diva woke in a not so happy mood. I am not sure why she was so unhappy but it for sure had been the worse since we came home from China. Jason and I count our blessing everyday on how well she settled in. I know things could have been a lot harder then what they were. I am following a blog where the child is heading banging everything as a coping measure and grieving hard. Which, in the long run is a good thing. At least there was a strong attachment.

I am not sure what trigger Miss diva's mood but everything from a motorcycle going down the street, to the mattress delivery guys taking away the old mattress to momma having a shower without her in the bathroom. The mattress guys came with the new mattress and took the old. She followed them to the end of the driveway crying"no, momma's bed". This broke my heart, she is not going to do well with change and I am so not looking forward to having to leave her with someone. I know we need to do it but I am scared for her and for us and for YeYe and Grammie because they are the first ones to get this pleasure.

Anyway, wednesday rolled around and she was her normal self. She had an"emotional" day I guess. I love her so much and it's hard to see her go thorough this and there is nothing we can do.

Love you Yan Yan.

Monday, March 19, 2012

10 months home

Today I think constantly of one thing....how blessed I am to have such a beautiful baby girl. She makes my heart happy and beaming with pride.

On the other side of this world, I think about a mom whose heart could be broken with the decision she made that was in the best interest of her little girl. For whatever those reasons maybe, she is apart of our life, family and world. There is not a day that goes by that I don't pray for this lady, for peace, comfort and love.

Miss Diva must of had beautiful parents! She is beautiful, funny, calm, and most of all loving. My dream is to someday take her back to her homeland and see where she came from. I miss Hohhot, the crazy driving, the view from the hotel window, the rickashaws going down the street with so much cardboard piled on it , it was unbelievable, the peace that covered my body when I held Wang Feng Yan for the first time. I will never forget China!!! I fell in love with this place!

My heart breaks knowing the welfare institutions are full of children, children who have lost their families. Children who just want to have a family of their own, a momma, baba and a hug when they fall, a kiss goodnight and family that cares about them. God knows the desire of my heart and I want another child from China.

To my daughter's china mommy, we think about you!

First Ice Cream on a stick



Sunday, March 18, 2012

chattin' with Nannie

                                            Talking with nanna on the phone this morning

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Playing Outside..Mar14

                    She loves looking at the planes in the sky, this is what she is pointing at.
                                                                          My girl
    riding with her friends outside, it was a beautiful day and we took full advantage of the weather.


 riding in her cozy coupe car, she starting sweating and asked if she could take her coat off.
                                                          playing with tennis racquets

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Learning.....Shapes

The other day Miss Diva and I are were sitting at the craft table talking about shapes. I asked  her to draw me a heart, this is what she drew..

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Playdoh

Sunday afternoon, we didn't do much. It was nice to stay at home and enjoy Miss Diva. We got out the playdoh and all it's accessories and played. My thoughts were "life dosen't get much better then this." The only thing I think that could life better is winning the lottery and having her nanna's her in Ontario.


  playing with the octopus and making the playdoh come out the top...to make like hair or water!!
                                                Bob the Builder and Wendy
She was thrilled that she was allowed to have a knife and even allowed to cut the playdoh. She had a wonderful time playing
Then, I gave her,her Elmo scissors and she was thrilled. She loves to cut and being able to cut playdoh was right up her alley.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Toothbrush

 We gave her a electronic toothbrush for christmas , she got to decorate it herself.
                                                       finished toothbrush...now she has one like mama and baba.

Hats Off

 I went to conference and at the end of the day , they had baskets to give away and my name was drawn. This is one of the "hats" that was in the basket!
                                                                 serious baby!





                                                               sly little monkey!


New rain gear!

And of course my OCD kicked in and it has to match...funny thing is that Jason is starting to do the samething....I get responses like "but it dosen't match"..lol It's not a bad thing.

Yan Yan and baby stella

 She is really starting to enjoy this doll. I enjoy playing with this doll as well. hehe. It's machine washable and so is all it's accessories. The thing that I thought was cool was, there is a magnet inside the doll near it's mouth so that things like the bottle, soother, and things like that will stick to the mouth. I know, I know, simple things amuse simple minds.lol
                                                           playing with daycare friends

February favorites

 She loves her lip gloss or anything remotely close to lip stick..which I think is a good thing because her lip seems to peel something where the surgery was and they stitched the lip together. This will keep the lips soft.
                                                           My precious daughter!
                                She told me she was going "hopping" (shopping) with her baby. lol

I Think They Missed Each Other

We were off the friday before the family day weekend. Miss Diva's friend S was off the following tuesday. The were glued together when he returned to daycare the wednesday. This is what they were doing all morning. They played so nicely and quietly. Good Job my little friends.

                                                             still together and holding hands...
                           they even played dress up nicely together. It was indeed a wonderful day .
They were trying to figure out how to put these earrings on...S figured it out...Good Job!