This is Hard....

Recently, Madisyn has shown great interest in reading and arts. I normally find her curled up on the couch or in her bedroom somewhere, reading. Other days, constantly creating downstairs at the craft table. This is such as joy to watch her grow her love for both of these.

We've been doing some free art classes at the library. Learning about different artist and their techniques. She normally has no issues with leaving me to do things anymore. She goes to dance class alone, school, swimming and all sorts of activities. These art classes...NOT A CHANCE. So, I stayed with her in the room and just watched and helped another little boy in the room that has severe disabilities.

Later that night, driving home, we talked. I asked her why she didn't want to do this class alone. Her quick response was, it's loud and busy and I am afraid you will forget to come and get me. This made my heart hurt...hurt like never before. Is this coming from being abandoned...in a loud, busy place? Are these feelings of being alone and afraid? Being forgotten? My eyes sting with tears as I write this. I cannot imagine the feeling of uncertainly and anxiety she must feel inside her little body.  As I choked back the tears and tried to respond, I said baby girl, I will never forget you, I will never leave you or hurt you. I will always be here, be there whenever you need me. If me going inside the art class with you makes you feel safe, I will go.

As the conversation continued, I reminded her that I will never forget her. she said to me..."Mama, I forget that! I think you will forget!." Oh how my heart aches for her as we help her through this stage and I am sure it will appear other ways and times down the road but the truth is, she is not forgotten but loved. Very Much!

Baby girl, we love you!

Chinese New Year

We always get together with 2 families from the GTA that are more like family now than friends. I cherish every moment we get with them. We always have a great time together and the kids just love each other.

It was going to be in Newmarket this year but Jan and Paul has had some issues in their house with flooding, so I offered for them to come here.

it was so much fun!!!!

There was so much food!!!!

There was so much laughter!!!

Here are some pictures!

 

There was candy, stickers, lollipops , you name it, everywhere. We were still finding stuff the next day.....Life is so good

it's been a while.......

It's been quite sometime since I wrote on here. It's been quite the year needless to say. I will try and be better now that things have calmed down a little around here.

Dru's surgery in October went really well and I am so pleased with that. We have a follow up appointment coming up in march with the 3v1 clinic at McMaster the first week in march. He has started speech therapy again and looks forward to "Emma"day, which is Fridays.

After that, came Christmas which was very quite for us and no drama..I loved it! Just me, Jason and the kids. I loved every minute of the time I had alone with my little family. It was nice and time well deserve by Jason and I. We tend to take for granted the quality time needed with just us 4. It was good for the soul.

The new year has arrived and things are going well. Madisyn is doing very well. I am homeschooling her a little. I feel there are things that they are not teaching anymore (ie, cursive writing) which is important to me, so I am teaching her this. We are doing a little math as well. She is now reading novels and finding her head buried a book is a every day thing now. I love that she loves to read. Makes me a little giddy!

We are doing well. We are getting prepared for Florida. I am more excited than the kids I think. I have never been to Disneyworld, so this is new for me too. Cannot wait. I will post pictures.

Anyway, Jason and I are doing great! The kids are doing great! Life doesn't get much better than that!